Life of Mine

Fingers and Toes are Crossed

For years, I have been repeating myself over and over again.  I can’t count how many times I have said on here and to other friends that we would begin seriously looking for a house to buy.  I get really excited and hopeful that the timing is going to be right and everything will fall into place like we have wished and hoped for. 

I called the man that was going to do our pre approval through the real estate agency.  Unfortunately, our numbers are too low and we are unable to buy at this time.  Okay.  I cried, I got mad and I threw my own little tantrum while I was home alone.  I can’t say that I am pleased.  We have been working hard to clear up our old debts and trying like hell to make all payments on time to improve our credit.  It’s just not enough.  We are moving on.

We decided that we would look for a house to rent while still improving our credit.  We just need more space.  Our kids need a bigger place, they deserve so much more than what we have been providing them.  We are starting to feel like we have been failing at parenthood.  It sucks.  So, the rental house hunting began.  I looked in the paper and kept my eyes peeled for signs.  We knew of 3 in the school district!  I called and don’t you know that all three have already been rented!  Man, can we catch a friggin break?!! 

I decided to check on Craigslist because I am addicted to it and figured that I might as well try it.  I saw an ad for a house listed as a rent to own house!  It’s in the school district.  It has 3 bedrooms (we would love to have 4 so all the kids can have their own room but at this point, 3 will do!) and the lady is willing to do a rent to own!  Some of the rental payments would go toward the mortgage when it comes time to buy it.  She needs to talk to her listing agent for more information to see just how this would work because she doesn’t know all that much about the arrangements but we are hopeful. 

She told us to feel free to go to the house and walk around the yard and deck and see what we think.  We took the kids this morning and we did just that.  OH.MY.GOSH. we are in love!!  The yard is 1.5 acres and the deck is the best deck in the world..it is huge and perfect for Lincoln to play on.  Not to mention the fenced in area of the yard.  It has a garage and we peeked in the windows and it is really beautiful inside.  Did I mention that it is a real log house?!  It is quiet and serene and just great for us.  I was really hesitant to take the kids with us because they know what is going on and I would hate for them to get their hopes up and us not be able to swing it.  I don’t want them to feel the disappointment that I am so used to feeling. 

I called the owner as soon as we got home to set up a walk through and I am waiting to hear from her.  She said she is really hoping for a family to move in before winter and love this house as much as she does.  We could be that family.  We really could. 

Please keep your fingers and toes crossed for us that maybe, just maybe this could work out for us.  If you are the praying type, please pray.  All I want is to provide my children with a home with some space.  A space to call our own.  I want this so bad.  I am trying not to get my hopes up too much but I want to be optimistic.  I so badly want to be optimistic.  As Chuck said, we are in love.