Life of Mine

Hoping I Can Do This

There are only 17 days until school starts and I am starting to wonder if I will be able to keep up with everything. 

It worries me that I am struggling to keep up now and we don’t have the school routine and homework routine added into the mix.  I have gotten to the point where I can’t even hide the fact that I am exhausted every afternoon and evening.  This could be due to the fact that I am getting up at 4:30-5am everyday and working 8-9 hours a day.  I am also coming home to cook dinner, clean or do laundry and then getting the kids ready to go to football practice for two hours, during which I am either going to the gym or running around after Lincoln.

I have been drinking coffee to stay awake in the early evenings. 

Once school starts, my morning routine will remain the same but the afternoons and evenings will include more work.  I will be helping with homework, packing lunches, making sure the kids are getting their showers and trying desparately to stay awake!   I realize that my husband can help and he does when he can but he is also working 12-17 hour days doing hard physical labor.  He is always exhausted as well!!

I don’t know how some women do this and are energetic and have their hair, makeup and clothes looking clean and fresh!  I am beginning to think that they may possibly be robots!!  Stepford wives!! 

Okay, so I don’t know exactly where I was going with this but to say that I am getting more nervous as the days go by and the first day of school draws near.  I am taking the day off for the first day because I absolutely will not miss out on their first day.  It was something that I refused to bend on.  I am nervous that I won’t be able to do this all, that I will fail at doing all the things that are on my plate. 

I am hoping to gain strength from somewhere and forge ahead successfully at all the different jobs I have.  Sometimes it is just plain tough to wear all these different hats in life!